This is SO Frustrating !

Saw the Kelowna Doc & Team today.    The good news is I’m at 16 % function ( Creatinine 357 )   which puts me in Transplant zone.  20 % would make it borderline.   I am definately more systematic and I found out the Night of puking I did after eating shepards pie (ground beef ) was protien overdose related.  That also explains the Nausea and my lack in intreast in meat ( doesnt explain my   _ _ _ _ ’s lack of intrest in Meat     . 

I have also lost 6.3 kg since my last dr. visit 3 mo. agao,  I call it an actual 10 lb loss,  vs  thier 6.3kg number.   

The Frustrating part of all this is I FEEL I HAVE NO DAMN CONTROL IN ANY OF THIS STUPID KIDNEY RIDE.    .   .   I ABSOLUTERLY H-A-T-E  MY DAMN CONDITION IMPACTING OTHER PEOPLES LIVES.   I WISH IT WAS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO GO THROUGH THIS ALONE SO I’M NOT MESSING PEOPLE UP ON SO MANY FRONTS.  THATS PROBABLY  MY BIGGEST PISS OFF WITH THIS WHOLE THING,  BUT WHAT CAN I DO,  I HAVE GREAT FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND A JOB AS WELL WHO ARE ALL CONCERNED AND CARE FOR ME.  SO I KNOW I’M SO FORTUNATE AND LOOK FORWARD TO HEALTH,  WHENEVER THAT WILL BE.   .   .  but I still think this is the SHIT’S,     .    But I know it could be so much worse and I’m so fortunate I do have great people in my life. 

So I’m done my little hissy fit and will “Buck UP” and carry on.